A parenting & lifestyle blog written by Claire Chircop.


There are lots of things I’ve struggled with since becoming a mother, the sleepless nights and the temper (for no reason) tantrums are just a couple of things which spring to mind, but the thing I’m struggling with most is feeling like I have no other purpose other than keeping my tiny human alive… I’m mourning my pre-baby self!

Pre-baby I could be as selfish as I liked. Pre-baby I took freedom for granted. Pre-baby I was living a totally different life.

Don’t get me wrong I love my post-baby life, it’s amazing, she’s amazing & the life we’re creating for ourselves is amazing… It’s just very different! And sometimes, usually at 2am when baby’s having her tenth meltdown of the day I can’t help but mourn my former life. There are times when I can’t get out of my head, and I get stuck down the rabbit hole of thinking (and I hate to say it) that I’m just a mum.

The reason I hate that phrase is that it suggests being a parent is easy… As if staying at home to look after your child is the easier option. Lord knows that couldn’t be further from the truth! If anything going to work would be easier, I know my job like the back of my hand, I’m good at it & I’m successful, however being at home I’m well and truly winging it. I’m living this parenthood life day by day. 

No day is ever the same, some days she could be as good as gold & others it’s like I’ve given birth to the spawn of Satan.

The good days are really good & the hard days are really hard!

Again I just want to reiterate that I love being a parent, but there are so many things I miss about my pre-baby life.

There have been many a time I’ve skipped meals since having Amelia. The days go so quickly and my brain is constantly focused on when her next bottle is due or when the next nappy change will be that providing for myself often gets overlooked. Instead of eating, I’m picking… Picking at all the naughty foods and snacks that are more convenient to quickly grab rather than spending half an hour cooking up a wholesome meal. Unfortunately as much as I love pigging out on pork pies and chocolate, I’m definitely mourning good quality, nutritious food.

I’m grateful for every single penny I receive in my new monthly wage, but it’s no secret that maternity pay is tough! I receive £563.92 a month, which when you think that I pay £400 for the mortgage and then I have direct debits for my car insurance, car tax and my phone bill, what I’m actually left over with is very little. Before starting my maternity leave we’d been saving as much money as possible to ensure we weren’t left in the poop money wise, but even three months in I’m mourning the extra disposable income I’d have. Gal just wants to do an ASOS shop and not have to worry about the repercussions.

There’s certainly a lack of freedom when it comes to having a baby, you’re no longer number one & your priorities understandably change. The main thing I’d say I’m struggling with is the lack of freedom, and by freedom I’m meaning the daft things… Being able to go to the toilet when I want to, sitting down to my laptop and blogging when I want to or even popping out to the shops when I want to. Don’t get me wrong all of these things are still very much achievable, but more thought and planning needs to go into even the most simple of tasks. I’m definitely mourning freedom and spontaneity.

There is absolutely no point in me getting dressed up on a daily basis, my Instagram images tell a different story (because that’s what Insta is all about) but my day to day get up is a pair of £5 Primark tracksuit bottoms (from the men’s section might I add because they’re cheaper) and a random old probably un-ironed t-shirt. I’ve always dressed for comfort rather than style, but I’m certainly taking things to the extreme at the moment… Reason being is that it’s very likely I’m going to get covered in milk vomit, drool and probably either poo or piss at some point during the day - There is literally no point in looking faaancy! I miss looking faaancy!

Time to myself is pretty much none existent at the moment & truth be told, I’m really struggling with it. This point sort of goes hand in hand with the whole freedom thing, but I specifically wanted to go a bit more in depth to having time to myself… Quite frankly, because I don’t get it. When I get stuck down that deep dark rabbit hole of negativity I think up of all the times I’ve actually been away from my baby and time where I can totally chill or do my own thing. Truth is I’ve probably had between 8-10 hours to myself away from Amelia… In eight weeks! Now that’s tough! I’m not saying I don’t want to spend time with my baby, but I’m certainly mourning having time to myself.

Admittedly this isn’t a massive issue for me, I actually quite like my post-baby body but there’s no question about it, she isn’t as toned or as taught as my pre-baby body. What my body has gone through over the last year is nothing but amazing, and what I’ve actually achieved in growing and providing for my tiny human is incredible, but If you asked me which body I’d prefer I’d be lying if I didn’t pick my pre-baby body. 

So there we have it, just a couple of things I miss from my pre-baby life. My post-baby life is hard, God knows it can be SO hard and I’ve undoubtedly had my dark days, but it’s the most enjoyable & most rewarding life to lead - And I wouldn’t have it any other way.

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I’ve said right from the beginning that I want to be as open & honest about motherhood and I think the perfect way of doing so is letting you guys in on my weekly routine… The word routine being used very loosely here!
Some of you might think it’s boring, others reassuring & relateable, but this is me… My week being parent to a newborn.
05.00 – Morning! This is where our week starts. Amelia tends to wake up between 4.00-5.00… Today it’s the latter meaning Dan & I get a little longer in bed. Thanks Amelia!
8:30 – Dan’s leaving for work now leaving me in control of the baby & the puppy. When I say puppy, that’s a lie because Willow’s almost four now, but she’ll always be a pupper to me… Plus it sounds like I’m doing a better job than I’m actually doing saying I’m looking after a puppy & a newborn!
9:45 – The cars packed, it’s taken over an hour but somehow I’ve managed to get myself ready, the baby ready & the dog ready to head off to a Beagle meet up at Poochie Park in Sherburn in Elmet. Bring on puppy cuteness and adult conversation.
10:30 – We arrive. It’s bitterly cold outside but we’re all wrapped up and having the best time watching the dogs run around together and enjoy themselves. It’s nice being able to do things like this as I don’t get to walk Willow as often or as far as what I used to.
12:00 – After the beagle meet up we head to Nikki’s new house for a coffee and some biscuits… Lots of biscuits! Amelia has a little cry, but nothing we can’t handle… If anything she’s better behaved than the dogs.
15:00 – Home time now & the day’s gone so quickly! I love having days like this as it feels like Dan’s never left. It’s so weird that I spend 10 hours a day from Monday-Friday solo parenting, sometimes it feels like it goes on forever, but today’s a good day! Todays whizzed passed in the blink of an eye.
18:00 – Family time! We end up having a pretty boring night tonight. By boring I mean Amelia’s actually been chilled. Boring nights in are actually a Godsend now!
23:00 – Bath, bottle & bed! I don’t know what we’ve done to deserve today, but Amelia’s been as good as gold! Bed time goes off without a hitch, let’s hope the rest of the week stays like that… Although I can bet your bottom dollar it wont!

06:30 – Amelia’s only just got up! I’m absolutely over the moon. This has been the longest she’s ever slept so hoorah for a full night’s sleep. Or as full a night as they’ll get at the moment – We can’t expect miracles now can we?
11:00 – I’m crying happy tears! Amelia’s being so cute right now it’s ridiculous. I’ve been pinching her cheeks and saying ‘cheeky cheeky’ and she’s been going nuts for it, she seems to like it, so I’m going with it. The cuteness lasts all of about an hour before it seemingly gets too much for her, and the tears come. I was reading before that her brain is going into sensory overload at the moment, she’s starting to develop all of these new emotions, but she doesn’t quite know how to handle them. The hour of cuteness however is SO worth the grizzle that’s about to come.
14:00 – This afternoon’s proving tough. I can’t seem to settle Amelia for some reason. She’s fed, changed, winded & cuddled but we can’t go 10 minutes this afternoon without crying. It’s afternoons like this I wish I had Dan with me. My emotions sometimes get the better of me when I’m on my own, this time thankfully everything’s under control.
17:45 – Dan gets in & instantly gets cracking on a Thai green curry – He’s such a good egg & it’s his speciality! We both manage to eat in peace as Amelia’s quiet as a mouse peeping in the Moses basket. This is a rarity so we’re making the absolute most of it!
18:30 – I spend the next 45 minutes in the bath, more catching up on social media and having a bit of time to myself rather than washing. I do wash eventually don’t get me wrong, but it takes a little while. My bath is interrupted by hearing Dan shout ‘Oh Amelia’ from downstairs.
19:10 – I make my way down, still in a towel to find what I can only describe as the biggest poo explosion I’ve ever seen. She’s stripped down, poo all over her arms, legs, up to her nips… Basicaly everywhere apart from her face and hair. Gross!
19:20 – Bath time… Understandably.
22:00 - Dan heads off to bed seeing as though he’s been up since 6am, leaving me slumped on the sofa with a sleepy baby on my chest. I’ve decided to start watching ‘Abducted under plain sight’ on Netflix, I’d seen people chatting about it on Twitter a few days ago & knew it sounded like a bit of me! I only manage to watch the first hour before my eyes start getting heavy and start doing some extra long blinks.
23:30 – Bedtime... And again everything goes without a hitch! Hallelujah!

02:00 – Amelia starts to stir, I spend 10 minutes pretending I’m asleep in the hope that Dan see’s to her; Alas it doesn’t work. Damn me for being such a light sleeper. I grab her from the Moses basket, give her a quick snuggle and off we pop downstairs for a bum change (where she wees on me fyi) and bottle. It takes me a little while to get her back to sleep this morning as she has a curious case of the hiccups. She’s always got those dastardly things – I’ve  never known a baby get hiccups as much as Amelia does.
06:30 – She’s stirring again, this time I pop straight downstairs to make up a bottle and Dan feeds her while I catch up on a bit of sleep. I set my alarm for 07.20 in the hope of getting up and having a shower before Dan heads off to work… Spoiler alert… This doesn’t happen.
08.00 – Dan heads off to work leaving me with a milk drunk baby who luckily gives me an extra hour in bed.
10.00 – The first screaming match. I’m hoping this means she’ll have a quiet afternoon. That seems to be the case for the most part. She settles relatively quickly, with the promise of more milk, and I spend the next few hours catching up on Netflix… If you’ve watched ‘Abduction under plain sight’ please talk to me about it! I’m absolutely flabbergasted by it all.
12:30 – I manage to get Amelia down for a nap. She’s in the land of nod for just over an hour – Hallelujah – Giving me chance to write this blog post. Another rarity which I need to make the most of.
13:00 – Willow gets picked up for her weekly walk with Barbara. We’ve hired Barbara to walk our little pupper once a week to take a bit of the pressure off from me and so far she’s been absolutely brilliant.
13:30 – After a slow morning it’s time to finally get dressed and brush my teeth – Oops! I’m finding this to be the case for most days now, I’m either up and dressed before 7.30 or it’s really late in the afternoon – There doesn’t seem to be much in between.
13:45 – Bottle time! This time I can feel/see/hear/smell her pooping on me mid feed… The joys!
14:45 – Coffee number four… I may as well have it on an IV drip. Willow’s home now and she’s absolutely pooped. It’s so worth paying to have the dog walker as I’m unable to keep up with the masses of energy our little beagle bum has.
18:00 - Tonight’s tea is super lame, super easy cheese toasties! We love toasties though; we even included them in our wedding canapes.
20:00 – Monday night is usually our night to catch up on TV but for some reason this week it’s tonight. We’ve been watching ‘The secret life of 5 year olds’ and ‘SAS, who dares wins’ two totally different programmes, but one’s we’re totally hooked by.
23:00 - Bed time routine starts here as I make up Amelia’s last bottle for the day. A quick swig and she’s in what can only be described as a milk coma… The perfect state for getting her off to sleep.

04:00 – Up we get for the first feed. I don’t know how she does it, but Amelia always seems to wake exactly on the hour – It’s actually getting spooky now!
08:00 – Again like clockwork she’s up on the hour.
08:30 – Dan goes off to work, and this is where the crying starts – She turns out to be particularly grizzly this morning. For what reason, I don’t know, she’s fed, changed & cuddled, she’s just feeling a bit whingy this morning. I’ve just got to ride the wave.
09:00 – Being at home pretty much all day I’m on the lookout for new things to watch; Something I’m starting today is Gossip Girl… I’m only ten years behind!
13:00 – I’ve just clocked that the steriliser has broken…. Not what we need today, especially with such a grizzly baby. I’ve been on live chat with Tommee Tippee hoping to resolve the issue, fingers crossed I can get a replacement sooner rather than later. They’ve recommended we thoroughly descale it with distilled vinegar in the meantime but I’m doubtful that’s going to do anything.
15:00 – Six hours later & I’m still watching Gossip girl. I’m hooked! Although what is with Chuck Bass?... I don’t understand what sort of character he’s supposed to be?... Is he good looking?... Is he a bad boy?... Is he a secret romantic?... Answers on a postcard please. Oh and it’s totally obvious he’s going to end up with Blair!
15:30 – Amelia’s been asleep on me for a little while now, so in order to be productive I try and carry her across to her Moses basket. This lasts for all of about five minutes before the next crying session… There’s absolutely no blog work getting done this afternoon. Ooops! I’ve really struggled today with her, it feels like her crying has been none stop. There’s been tears from both momma & baby this afternoon. Motherhood realness right there.
17:30 – I start prepping tea with baby in the sling, it’s the only way I can get anything done this afternoon. Something I’m really struggling with at the moment is not having time to myself. I’ve spoken to loads of new mums though who have said the exact same thing as well. It’s difficult transitioning from a somewhat selfish life into one that’s totally selfless.
18:30 – Dan’s home with vinegar & it goes straight in the steriliser… Let’s hope it works… Spoiler alert… It doesn’t work. Of course.
20:00 – Dan takes over with Amelia so I can carry on with this blog post. I’m twenty minutes in and to be honest my head’s not totally in it. I feel like I’ve been dealing with the devil today and my head’s buggered. Twenty minutes of writing & I’m done. Time to enjoy some baby cuddles!

23:30 – We do the BBB routine (bath,bottle,bed) but it’s a bit of a no go tonight. I thought it would be, because she’s been so whingy during the day. She won’t stay in the Moses basket for any longer than ten minutes before screaming so Dan takes one for the team and decides to stay up with her.

05:00 – Dan wakes me up asking to take over looking after Amelia. While I’ve been upstairs in the land of nod he’s stayed downstairs with her keeping her company & trying to settle her. He assures me he’s had some sleep, how much though I’m not entirely sure. Eeek! I get up anyway and give her a bottle and change her nappy, she’s still wide awake at this point so we have some cuddles and a little play before eventually falling asleep.
10:00 – Wakey wakey! It’s just started snowing outside, thankfully it’s not laying, but it’s so bloody cold! Our house doesn’t seem to keep the heat in very well, especially downstairs, so we don’t really move from the sofa this morning, we’re keeping each other warm and cosy with lots of cuddles, coffee for me & warm milk for her.
12:30 – My sister’s visiting today! Hooray for adult conversation and an extra pair of hands!
15:00 – The weather’s had a complete 180 this afternoon, the snows gone and out comes the sunshine. It’s still ridiculously cold though so we all get wrapped up, Willow included, and head out for a dog walk, where Willow comes home with yet another found tennis ball. We’re building a little collection at the moment.
17:45 – Dan gets home just in time for the biggest poo explosion to date. It’s SO bad we’ve had to throw some of her clothes away! Why are babies so God darn disgusting.  Just as we manage to clean the explosion the door knocks and in comes Jake with our Godson Zak.
17:00 – Friday seems to be takeaway night for me & Dan at the moment & tonight is no exception! Pizza, chips, chicken wings, jalapeno poppers & drinks – We’ve mastered the eating one handed thing… Baby in one arm, chicken wing in the other… If that’s not peak parenthood, I don’t know what is.
23:30 – Bed time goes a lot smoother than yesterday – Thank the lord!

04:45 – Morning! Up we get for the first bottle of the day & a nappy change. I feel like I’ve really nailed the night feeds as we’re up for no longer than 45 minutes before I’m settling her back into bed… If anything it’s me that can’t get to sleep afterwards. I’m at the hair dressers later on today so I make sure to set my alarm for 7.15 so I’m up in time for my appointment.
08:15 – Somehow I’ve slept through my alarm! Thank goodness Amelia’s woken up otherwise I’d have been late.
09:00 – Hair time! Me time! Time for me to totally chill and unwind… No baby… No dog… No husband – It’s bliss!
10:45 – I make my return back home (bacon sandwiches in hand) to find Dan & Amelia being ridiculously cute together! She’s just started smiling, but with Dan being at work all day it’s not something he sees as much as I do, so watching him watch her is pretty amazing! It makes my ovaries burst!
12:00 – I’m back to writing a blog post! Hallelujah! Dan’s playing COD, Willows playing with her ball & Amelia’s asleep. I’m honestly living my best life right now! Not to mention I’m feeling particularly swish with my new hair.
14:00 – Time to wrap up and walk this puppy. I’ve mastered the art now of wrapping Amelia up in the sling, we’re ready to go in less than ten minutes – Something Dan’s very pleased about as he always says I take ages getting ready.
19:00 – I really don’t know where the day’s gone today… But I sit down to schedule some tweets ready for tomorrow’s #lbloggers twitter chat.
23.00 – BBB routine again. There’s something quite repetitive about this parenting lark isn’t there?

04:00 – Dan gets up to give Amelia her first bottle, he brings her back up to bed but for some reason she just wont settle. We have a super awake, super alert baby on our hands, it’s super cute, but part of me is willing for her to quuit it so we can go back to sleep. She’s definitely gotten cuter over the last week – And by that I mean she’s developing hr personality – The smiles are starting to come & she’s much more animated.
10:00 - Would you believe it?... We’ve managed to get some sleep!
14:45 – Swim time!... Last week was the first time Amelia stayed awake for the full lesson & this week is no different. In hindsight we probably  should have started taking her when she was a little bit older, but it’s getting her used to the water & it’s lovely catching up with the other new parents & their babies.
16:00 – Another new weekly tradition seems to be the post swim McDonalds.
19:00 – I’m hosting the #lbloggers chat on twitter tonight. After running the #BDIB chat the year before last it’s something I definitely miss doing, but can’t commit quite as much time to as before - I host #lbloggers twice a month now which works perfectly for me.
20:00 – Now it’s time to wind down for the day. I have a milk drunk baby somewhat comatose on me, coffee in one hand & a chocolate bar in the other… My perfect night in!
22:30 – BBB… Again.

So there we have it, you might find it boring, you might find it 100% relateable, but this is what I get up to on a weekly basis. I don’t get much time to myself and I mostly smell of regurgitated milk, but this is me & I wouldn’t change a thing!

What do you think? Can you relate to my week?


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